There's an app for that! ...Right?

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Shining brightly, the circle in the sky warms my cold feet. Too cold, too cold, is what those in black and old gold say, but this cold is repairable only by waiting. Watching nature watch me leaves me mesmerized and wanting more. Flying by the fall hued backdrop of travel, grumbling through back streets and alleyways - my mind is lost in mismatched thought.

Coming and going are the same at times, looking forward to the brick wall presented in front of me. Do I climb it, bust through it, build a house next to it, coat it with beautifully painted remnants of love, turn my back to it and walk away, walk along the wall until it ends and I forget where I am going, use it as endless paper and write my innermost desires and wishes, hopes and fears? Pretend it is not there?

At times healing means erasing, but most times it involves suppression. The enveloping and storage of delicate memories, feelings, experiences can make profound difference within and indifference without. Joining the inner with the outer while valuing the balance and importance of both is taxing on the body and the mind. The heart however, as delicate and strong as we make it, can at times: have all control - provide limitations - give jurisdiction - provide insight - and reveal what was thought to be hidden or forgotten.

Maybe healing isn't an option...maybe all that exists or is absent from us regarding love and our capacity or inability to do so makes us who we are. We shouldn't resolve to missing out on the joy of life, the joy of connections that run deeper than deep and are closer than close, the joy of love that is both genuine and true, the joy of loss and heartbreak that brings solace in knowing that you cannot control anything or anyone but yourself...

There is no 'app' for that, no app for life, for love, for healing, for direction, for change, for growth. We must APPly ourselves instead to reflection and be active in what happens to us, in order to improve our connections and interactions with the world and people around us in a positive way.

Doin....doin....

Saturday, October 10, 2009



Stretching past your limits makes you stronger. Only when done with caution... Injuries are not welcome here.

Thinking past the vibes of life have brought me peace with my current existence. Aiming to breathe in and connect with each fleeting passage of CO2 bringing in the "O" giving to my blood, release and energy.

I tried to think in the dark once, however, my thoughts escaped because I did not record them. It is a wonderful experience to replay your thoughts aloud when no one is listening and when you are in the absence of light, enveloped in darkness. Feeling, experiencing, pushing through, keeping your aim as experience rather than end result will engage you in a trust. Breaking limits that could have otherwise been beyond your reach.

Awareness. Education. Growth.

Living in the moment, learning from your past mistakes and taking in the current events around you to inform your next move (pending their agreement with your consciousness)...and then moving, growing, becoming someone new.

Everything you see or do you are doing for the first time...you are not the same now as you were two letters ago, two seconds ago, two years ago. Embrace each new experience as it is because you are you, newer than ever, at this very moment, right now.